Bloganuary 31
I’m afraid of every damn thing! But, I’m mostly scared of letting my fear prohibit me from learning and trying incredible things. So, I do all the things while being scared. Unfortunately, my determination gives some people the impression that I’m wildly outgoing and unafraid when the reality is the opposite. I used to think I could only be one thing or the other – fearless and adventurous or fearful and missing out, so I used to be confused about how I fit in anywhere in the world. I lived in a constant fight or flight, even with my own emotions. Now I know that most people are at least a little of everything, and a lot of us are a lot of everything. And that’s okay. I remain afraid of it all – heights, creepy crawly things, death, the dark, strangers, failure, but more than anything, not making a difference. Not mattering. So, I climb the heights, I pet the snakes, I make friends with strangers, and I try really really hard to matter. Be afraid, but do it anyway. It’s the only way I know how to be.