Bloganuary 31
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?
I’m afraid of every damn thing! But, I’m mostly scared of letting my fear prohibit me from learning and trying incredible things. So, I do all the things while being scared. Unfortunately, my determination gives some people the impression that I’m wildly outgoing and unafraid when the reality is the opposite. I used to think I could only be one thing or the other – fearless and adventurous or fearful and missing out, so I used to be confused about how I fit in anywhere in the world. I lived in a constant fight or flight, even with my own emotions. Now I know that most people are at least a little of everything, and a lot of us are a lot of everything. And that’s okay. I remain afraid of it all – heights, creepy crawly things, death, the dark, strangers, failure, but more than anything, not making a difference. Not mattering. So, I climb the heights, I pet the snakes, I make friends with strangers, and I try really really hard to matter. Be afraid, but do it anyway. It’s the only way I know how to be.
