Bloganuary 7
What could you do differently?
I could do every damn thing differently. This is an odd question.
I made a mistake in my paper planner and am struggling to not just throw it away. I could just throw myself away, instead.
What SHOULD I do differently? Probably take better care of myself. I could take my medical needs more serious, I could take better care of myself while I’m symptomatic, and I could do better at learning how to manage those symptoms. I could strive to plan self-care and alternatives for plans that are ruined by The Big C. Basically, I could learn to consistently Love and Logic myself by having two good choices that I can be happy with: a choice for when I’m strong and a choice for when I’m less strong. Ah. Consistency. I could also learn to consistently have grace with myself and the grieving process as well as consistently have empathy for those who are loving and supporting me through this hellscape that I’m trying to make beautiful.
This sounds exhausting.
I could just eat cheese and hope that at 4:30am I can finally find sleep.
