Exploring the American Wilderness and Other Adventures

Bloganuary 1

What are your biggest challenges?

Me. I’m my biggest challenge. You probably thought I’d say cancer is my biggest challenge. Maybe that’s part of it, but the Big C has only been around for 3-4 years while my challenges have been around…longer.

Despite my boldness, I’m afraid of everything. I think I developed my boldness in response to being afraid of everything. I’m afraid of the dark, I’m afraid of heights, I’m afraid of intimacy, I’m afraid of being too much, or not enough, I’m afraid of not making a difference, I’m afraid of writing things others will read. I guess my fight or flight response to fear leans toward fighting. Just do the thing. Act the way I want to feel. Pretend to be the person I want to be.

Is that right? I don’t don’t know. I can say I don’t miss out on many things because of it. I do face a lot of failure, though. Failure means I’m trying, as they say.

Here I am, bloguary. Trying.